merxyn's musings

From about July 2018 to May 2019, life was pretty much normal. In September, I met one of my best friends in Los Angeles for a spiritual event, hosted by Arn...

I grew up in Texas in the 1970s and 80s, not too far from what television depicted as the American Dream in middle-class suburbia, USA. In many ways, as I la...

In April of 2017, I began writing fb: a soul's journey. In truth, I had written parts of it since I was thirteen. As I mention in one of my past life blog po...

Since 2001, I've had Restless Legs Syndrome - a condition in which the nerves of the legs or arms flare up, causing them to ultimately twitch if not moved on...

In August of 2014, I got an incredible job, still in the software development field, but this time working the hours I wanted and at home as well. As of thi...

Note: This relates to my Soul Awakening journey and was originally written in June 2014. I will update in future blog posts. As I stated in the introduction ...

This is what I wrote in June of 2014, almost a month after I got back from South Africa. I will update what has happened since then in future blog posts. So,...

Part 1 - The Body Maker It seemed like we had reached the end of my story, and least the important bits. We had one more session to go, and Arn asked me wha...

Part 1 - The Forest's Gift to Me Once again, Arn was astonished at the events that occurred during my solo healing session, and when he asked me what our goa...

Part 1 - Simcha, Boy of Light This morning, I admitted to Arn that a big part of my frustration yesterday was due to my inability to connect with that Boy of...

Part 1 - Shadow's Origin Since I had put the seed of hate in my heart the previous night, Arn and I decided we'd try once again to see if we could get to the...

Part 1 - The Tool of Shame As I stated in the introduction, the morning of our second day marked, with very few exceptions, how we would conduct the rest of ...

Acknowledging Shadow Our first day began the day after I arrived. Arn thought it would be a good idea to start our journey with a hike down a narrow trail in...

In May of 2014, I spent a week in Knysna, South Africa, with spiritual healer Arn “Zingdad” Allingham, as an exclusive client for one of his Spiritual Safari...

Note: This was originally written and updated in 2014. This is the story of a little soul, a being, a seed among countless others. One that had been happy, ...

Note: This was originally written in December of 2013. Tuesday is going to be my last day of work at my current job. I've completely run out of steam there....

This was originally written in January 2014. As I have mentioned in my post about being a solider boy, I have felt trapped, imprisoned, during grade school a...

This was originally written in December 2013. In the summer of 1985, when I was a twelve year-old heading into seventh grade, my parents enrolled me in a tw
 "Do what you're told. Don't question orders. Keep your head down." I felt this boy's jealously whenever he would see a kid that didn't share his prisoned life. Perhaps this other kid was enjoying eating a treat, or happily walking down the street with his parents or friends. I could see how in this life, that has carr

This was originally written in December 2013. During the past several years, I have had the privilege of working with a dear friend of mine, Arn "Zingdad" Al...